Tuesday, February 12, 2013

6 wk visit

We went to the Drs yesterday for the 6 wk visit and Dr Martinez said we were doing great, and are role models for others, which is nice to hear! Even though I always say that I'm not that strong, I know that Chris and I are very strong and our love for each other and for Chloe is going to get us through all of this! We know that we gave Chloe the best chance for her to be here with us physically, God just wanted her home sooner then we thought.

I heard something really sweet the other day about my youngest niece Mallory, my sister Mandy had said Mallory's teacher had asked if Chloe had passed because in chapel (she goes to a Christian school) Mallory had said a prayer for Chloe, and said everyday since then she has talked about Chloe. Which I think is so sweet and Mallory said to me "Chloe's Gods baby, she's in heaven with God and Jesus." That just warms my heart, it's so honest and true, and it really shows how pure a child's heart and thoughts are.

As Chris and I were talking yesterday, we were thinking about how many people we have met and who have reached out to us since everything with Chloe happened, and it's really surprised us at how kind others can be. Also how many other families have went through similar situations and have lost a child. It's a very humbling experience to know how many people have been effected or inspired by Chloe's story. Also how great our experience with our Drs have been, I don't think it would of been so easy to get through all of it if it wasn't for Dr Martinez, Dr Fanous and all of their staff. They've all been so great, helpful, and supportive.

Also before I forget, for those who donated for the bracelets, I sent off the donation amount to ABC and we all raised $310. I know some are still donating and once I get those I will be sending off those to them as well! Y'all are amazing!

I also finally got Chloe's foot print and initials tattoo'd by her anchor! Done by Mike at Pachuco Tattoo!

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Chloe's memorial

As most know Chloe's memorial service was last Thursday, and let me tell you it was so beautiful.  I want to thank everyone who was able to come and celebrate Chloe's short time with us, and for everything everyone has done for our family.  I will post pictures from the service at the end of the blog for anyone who hasn't seen. Here is a link to her obituary as well: http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/mywesttexas/obituary.aspx?n=chloe-aria-martin&pid=162740595

I'll be honest I was very nervous for the memorial, I just thought that I would just be a mess, but honestly Chris and I did very well, we def cried, but it was a very, very beautiful service. As we were greeting people as they walked in, my friends son came up, gave me a rose, and a little pink hippo, and hugged me, and went and hugged Chris, and I'm sure he knew Chris needed a good hug because he did not let him go. My cousin Kelsey read these 2 poems I had found, which I am so grateful for because I knew I wouldn't of been able to read them that's for sure. My youngest niece, Mallory, decided she wanted to sit with us at the front, and as we walked down to our seats her and I went and put the flowers I had received before the service on the table with the little pink hippo. As Kelsey was reading the poems of course I started to cry, and then I looked to Chris and he was crying too, which made me cry even more! I ended up leaning my head onto his shoulder and he leaned his head onto mine as we were crying, and about that time Mallory looked at us, then leaned over onto me with her head and just sat there. It was so sweet, I guess its true what they say about how kids know when you need that. As the service went on the preacher, Brother Bob, had said even though Chloe wasn't able to physically be here with us, she was a person, not an object, and I believe some people forget that.  Chloe was a baby, she was a person, and no matter how small her little feet where she made a huge impact on every ones life. After the service we did the balloon release, and for everyone there, I honest can't remember everything that I had said right before the release, but I want everyone one to know that I meant what was said, and Chris and I are so grateful for all of you who have been with us through this time, and have supported us. I do remember saying if you have a balloon that you'd like to let go, you can, I said that because I didn't want any of the small kids that didn't want to let their balloon go, let it go. But a friend of ours told me after the balloon release that she has never seen so many small children let go of a balloon before, and none of them cry about it. It was awesome and I know my friends son was saying the balloon was for Chloe, so I feel like they all knew their balloon was going to a really great place, and they were for an amazing little girl.

On a side note, for anyone who had a problem for when Chloe's service was, I feel very sorry for you, you missed out on a very beautiful thing, and I am honestly going to pray for you, it saddens me how selfish some are, and how others thoughts can be. As they say, if it is important to you, you will find a way, if it isn't you will find an excuse. Because of that I let it go, and will not worry myself with others. (How does that saying go? No matter what you do someone will always have an opinion on it.)

Also for anyone who hasn't seen, Chris and I will be mailing off the donations to ABC ministry from Chloe's bracelets on Feb 7th. So far everyone who has donated has helped raised $287! I know some people would like to donate, and that is wonderful, just let Chris or I know, and we can get you our address, or ABC's address.

Here's the poems Kelsey read:

This was a life that hardly begun
no time to find your place in the sun
no time to do all you could have done
but we loved you enough for a lifetime

No time to enjoy the world and its wealth
No time to take life down off the shelf
no time to sing the song of yourself
though you had enough love for a lifetime

Those who live long endure sadness and tears
but you'll never suffer the sorrowing years
no betrayal, no anger
no hatred, no fears
Just love, only love in your lifetime..
_______________________________
­­­­­­You never said you're leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before we knew it,
And only God knew why.
A million times we needed you,
A million times we cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life we loved you dearly
In death we love you still
In our heart’s you hold a place,
That nobody could ever fill.
It broke our heart’s to lose you,
But you didn't go alone
For a part of us went with you,
The day God took you home.




Chloe's table, her urn is sitting inside
the flower arrangment.

Oakley giving Chris a hug and not letting go
 
Balloon release, as we've all said it looks like a heart


Chloe finally home where she belongs