In our state of mind and life now looking back, that was one of the darkest times of our lives, but Chris and I lived it to the fullest and tried to look for the best in all of the situations we were handed. I believe our faith was tested to the fullest, and we def came out stronger than I thought we would of. Some people may think, ‘well if you knew she was going to pass away anyway, why go through the pregnancy, and just terminate?’ Well that’s a good questions, that was an option that the Dr’s had gave us. For some people that may be the easy thing for them to do, but as I had told Chris when we were discussing our options, I didn’t want to choose the day that our daughter died. Now that may seem morbid, why hold on if you know she won’t make it? Because I wanted her to go when she was ready to go, and when God said it was her time. I know that if we would of done the other option I probably wouldn’t of had to have any c-section’s, or have to have a classical c-section making it where all of my pregnancies I have to always have a c-section. But that was just a minor bump that I really don’t mind, both of my sections were not bad at all, and I honestly prefer it, it’s not like I have a choice anyway. ;)
The past 2 years we haven’t mourned too often, but we’ve celebrated Chloe’s life and the blessings that she has sent our way. I can see her in Brooke every day, and yes I do wonder, would it be this way if Chloe had been fine, but I know that we wouldn’t have Brooke here. Chloe was sent to us for a reason, and we got to see our guardian angel being born on January 8, 2013. I know that she has helped watch over us since that day, and helped to send us Brooke.
Happy Birthday Chloe, we love and miss you very much!
p.s. I wanted to say thank you to our family and friends who have been here for us, we appreciate it more than y’all will ever know, and seeing/feeling all the love today has def helped me smile.
And helping to eat her cupcake!